Cancer Thoughts 21

Friday, January 09, 2009

Changes are happening slowly very slowly but they are happening. I am completely off all of the pain medication since Christmas. I am driving a bit; eating all of my meals by mouth the food is pureed still although this morning I had regular scrambled eggs and cottage cheese with no problem.

I am walking each morning and I up to about a mile and a quarter in 30 minutes, I am very tired after so it is a work in progress. My mouth is still has sores on my tongue and inside my mouth. Until they are gone it is going to be hard to add foods. The food must be very bland as it causes a lot of pain. I am at the point where nothing is happening fast enough, I am still tired, my energy is low and have to work at everything.

My concentration is much better; I can actually read now. My neighbors Mike and Mary gave me a book called Anti cancer a new way of life by David Servin-Schreiber MD. PhD. I am reading and studying this book in order to change my life. The book gives ideas on diet, exercise, attitude and ways to stop cancer from coming back. I have bought into it and hope to have a new attitude and a new way of eating.

We are waiting for approval from the insurance company to see a nutritionist to help with my diet while for a number of reasons. One is to give me a diet that will fall within the guidelines of Anti cancer for now that I can puree and still maintain my weight. I have lost another 4 pounds, now if you saw me before cancer you would think 4 pounds is good but I am now about to go under 200 pounds and that is not good, the doctors want me to maintain my weight not loose more. My wife bought a size large pajama bottom that fit just fine. Rick and Justin’s (My step son and Nephew in there late 20’S) bathing suit are a little big on me. If I stay where I am now I am good with it, I do not want to loose any more weight, or go the opposite way and start eating bad and gaining. So the plan is to work with a nutritionist to get the diet down to keep me healthy and cancer free.

I see my entire team of oncologist next week, so I will give you an update after that. I am bored, tired, my mouth hurts and I want this to be over now. I need patients, energy and a positive attitude and right now I am not sure I have them, at least all at the same time. I am doing my best some of the time and some of the time I just get by.

I still choose to Fight On.

Love Michael